Withstanding Resistance

Imagine preparing for the biggest fight of your life.  After months of preparation and training, you are ready to complete the task. There is only one thing between you and victory: your opponent.  Optimistically approaching the ring you are determined to bring home a win when suddenly you glance at the competition. No time for panic the fight is about to commence, the announcer has taken his stance. Grabbing the microphone he rambles “let’s get ready to rumble”. Looking at your opponent you notice its giant-like stature than you realize this is the fight of your life!
boxing-555735_1920Doesn’t this scenario sound familiar? It reminds me of the biblical story of David and Goliath.  In 1 Samuel 17:50 it reads, “David triumphed over the Philistine (Goliath) with a sling and a stone; without a sword in his hand he struck down the Philistine and killed him”. Furthermore in verse 51 “ David ran and stood over him. He took hold of the Philistine’s sword and drew it from the sheath. After he killed him, he cut off his head with the sword”.That is probably where the phrase “sticking a fork in it” was coined.

Moving on from that pun, my favorite thing about David was his ability to overcome adversity by literally facing a giant; his giant. David’s story mirrors everything I’m facing in my own life. After two years of battling anxiety, I am aware that mental illness is merely a giant I face every day. However, in recent months I realized my ability to overcome my giant is based solely on my mindset. Think about it, we are a product of the thoughts we allow to fill our minds.  I look at it like this, giants are roadblocks to progress and in order to successfully defeat them, we must learn to withstand resistance. 

In order to know how to withstand resistance, we have to know exactly what that is. Have you ever engaged in the game tug of war? If so, then you’d know how challenging itrope-3214773_1920 can be to come out victorious. To avoid losing the game you are constantly facing resistance. Every time you pull the other team tugs you back with an even greater force.  The whole purpose of the game is to prove one’s strength by pulling the opposing team past the central line marked on the ground. However, if the force pulling you is stronger than the power you are exerting, you will lose the battle every time. The same thing is true when we are facing our giants if we give in to the opposition of the obstacle we will never know how it feels to prevail against what’s preventing our success.

I’ve said all this to say, life as we know it is constantly throwing us curve balls. Nevertheless, we must continue to battle like its a fight and pull like its a vicious game of tug of war. You will ultimately be triumphant if you have the courage to face any form of resistance.  There will be tough days when you feel like you are in the trenches, just know better days always come.






Lying awake at night for hours on end, I find myself wondering when I will be able to sleep through the night again.  You see anxious thoughts have a way of keeping your mind awake through the night.  My mind wasn’t always a jumbled mess, but grief has a funny way of knocking the peace out of you. There were days when worrying was the last thing on my mind, but lately, it’s consumed my existence. I should know better, with my religious background the worries in my head should all melt away isn’t that what scripture says?

Philippians 4:6-7 reads: Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.


Trust me that scripture replays in my head every time I’m plagued by an episode of anxiety. I try to remember that God loves me and won’t put more on me than I can bear, but sometimes it’s unbearable. At times my thoughts are more powerful than my faith. I try to focus on today and let tomorrow workout itself. After all the Bible illustrated it perfectly in Matthew 6:34: Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

If that be true why can’t my mind digest it? Why can’t I see past my pain?  At times I wonder if I will ever be the same? Two years ago I was living a beautifully orchestrated life with God at the forefront. I had not a worry in the world. Then an accident claimed the life of my best friend and three other friends.  Guilt-stricken, I didn’t understand why out of all the trips we’d taken I decided not to go on this one. Was it something that made my life more special then their’s that they can’t still be here? No! They were the epitome of all that life stood for. They put others before themselves, they saw the best in every living thing, it’s mind-boggling. Beware life can change in an instance.

One moment my life is perfect then next perfection is merely a facade.  Just when I thought I’d had enough pain at once, my aunt passed unexpectedly. Racking my brain for answers to life’s uncertainties only made my anxiety worse. At this point I know it can’t get any better, months later I got wind that my grandpa passed from medically-related complications.

At this point, that’s when numbness settled in. I tried to smile through the pain but couldn’t manage. I said all my prayers and recited scriptures, but the faith wasn’t there. Depression has a funny way of making you want to take a hiatus from existing.  I think that’s what did my colleague in.  Hearing the news of her untimely passing fueled my grief. I get it! Navigating through life with depression, anxiety, and PTSD is a daunting task.  It was at this point that I realized I needed help!

In January, I began trauma therapy combined with low dose medicine and yoga. It was with a clear head that I cried out to God letting go of my anger. For two years, my pain deterred me from my purpose. To be frank, God and religion was the last thing on my mind. I’d go to church, but I wouldn’t listen. Now I see what God is doing, He turned my pain into purpose.  So, today whatever has you mentally bound RELEASE it! It is okay to cry, but weeping endures for a night and joy comes in the morning. I’m not telling you what I heard, this is what I know.

Today’s Mantra: I will turn my pain into purpose!